We homeschooled our first “official” year last year. I was so stressed and filled with worry. Worry that I wasn’t doing something “right”. Stressed about getting it all done. I would constantly go to my husband who is my sounding board to vent my worry and tell him how I was doing it all wrong. Being the veteran teacher that he was he would assure me that I was doing alright and “that every teacher” has faced those same fears, doubts, worries and stress.
I have learned to trust the Lord. I have also learned to believe in myself that I can do this. I know that right now at this time this is where the Lord has us. I know that this is the best decision for our family. I can rest in this decision.
I have learned that “my plan” for the day doesn’t always match what actually happens. Some days start off rough and they keep going that direction. I can make every one’s life completely miserable by forcing the kids form to my plan and get every last detail done that I had planned for that day. By the way, this never ever works for us. More often I find myself changing gears. Putting that extra subject until tomorrow when we are all doing better. I find that we all do better this way. I also find that by the end of the week we get everything done that was planned for the week even if it didn’t follow my written plan to the letter. I guess I am saying that I am learning not to sweat it and stress it and rather I am learning to be flexible.
I see now that the Lord has changed my heart in helping me know that I can plan and “know what is up the road” but detours are okay. I can rest even though the day doesn’t go according to plan. I am very thankful for this in my life.